I Truly Hate Myself Now

 I wish I had never said the words that came out my mouth, the word I said to him, I don'y believe in god. Its something I need to through out there now because it ruined a great relationship with a guy in the pass. It was his mum who told him to break up with me, but I did believe at once in my life and could again. Now I am stressed out and went I am stressed I get really depressed and on top of the depressed that I lost  great guy like you Sean. I now have no one... I though that happiness had found me again but I guess not.